Sometimes when I miss you so terribly, the world around me which usually is such a vast space, suddenly seems to get smaller and smaller. It is as if I was stuck in a matchbox, with no escape, except the idea of you and the feeling of missing you. It is a strange sensation.
I felt it yesterday night once again. I got a bit of fever. As my body ached, it seemed like the only part of me which was awake was my mind. I dived in a very deep thought. My body wanted to float but the pain bedrid it. Then more than ever, my mind like a feather detached from my body. With one thought, clear and strong, all was about you. The world became such a narrow space by then. The only thing left was you, not even my mind.
Usually that is the only moment I accept to be held in a narrow place, to give up my freedom. The only moment I accept not to be able to flee. The only moment I accept that the world has nothing more to explore. When I am stuck with you, in my mind.
When I miss you so terribly, you replace the vastness of the world. And conquer the rest of my world.